You Don't Know My Life

Don’t compare your ‘same 24 hours in a day’ to mine (or anyone else’s for that matter). ​

It really pisses me off when I hear people discredit others or automatically assume the reason they can’t get something done is because of laziness or mismanagement of time. While that may be true for some, it’s not true for all.

A few months back, I decided to take initiative and build a timeline with hard deadlines on what I wanted to accomplish for TinaKimani and LadyJetsetter. That entire timeline went to shit. I started out okay. I got some work done on my website and was on track in the beginning. One morning, I was on my way up to the lounge where I usually do my blog work. Then a voice inside me told me to ‘jump’. The lounge is on the 56th floor. For those of you that don’t know, I suffer from Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Needless to say, when those thoughts entered my head, my deadlines no longer mattered. As much as I want to be in control of my ‘24 hours’, sometimes that is just not my reality. ​​

Despite all those setbacks and despite the discouraging comments people make, I'm still fighting. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not responsible for other people's ignorance and I should not let it get me down. So here I am, venting my frustrations and feeling a lot better. I am learning to ignore the comparisons. Also, I'm learning to not be so hard on myself. Sometimes it takes me a while to accomplish basic tasks and THAT'S OKAY. I think that I'm so used to instant gratification that when something doesn't happen fast, I beat myself up over it. It's really not a big deal. My health comes first. I'm still able to write. Who cares if it comes later than I anticipated? No one (besides me lol). 

All this to say, I'm a constant work in progress. If you're reading this, please be mindful of your words. Less reactive responses and more listening to actually learn/understand. You never know how you impact the people around you. 

​-Tina